Well I officially quit smoking on March 31st 2009. It has been one heck of a week.

I have been on top of the world and down deep in a hole this past 12 days.

I decided it would be a bit of help if I wrote out what is happening to me for the next few months.

I am using the patch and lozenges as needed. As of today I have not smoked or taken one puff off of a cigarette . I also have only had a lozenge in my mouth for less than 10 minutes.

How has it gone?

Pretty good actually.
Don't get me wrong there are really bad cravings some days (like today). And then none at all for hours at a time.
The 3rd day was the absolute worse. I was crying at work and just a total mess. But the day after was like pure joy. I felt so good about not smoking, when I felt so bad that it was just a super high.

So here is some background.
I have smoked steady since I was 16. I am now 35. That is almost 20 years I filled my lungs with poison and paid someone to make me little cancer sticks so I could. How is that for addicted.
Now I am not saying because you smoke you are stupid. But it is stupid to smoke. I know as well as anyone that putting the stupid things down are one of the hardest things anyone could ever do. It is not easy. But before you say I like to smoke. It calms me. It is my special time out for just me. Think about this. Before I quit I was always on edge, always worried about something and really blew up about the littlest things.
Now it is like night and day. Sure at first it was the same. But after just a few days I was calmer. More serene.
I actually accidentally spilled almost a whole candle down the sink. If that would of been when I smoked I would of blew up and just threw up my hands and went outside for a cig because I was "mad". This time I just shrugged and fixed my mess. No hollering, no getting angry just oh well gotta fix it and I did. I was so proud of myself for this little accomplishment. I still am.


Now today I worked through some of my "triggers". I got to admit I have been pretty tempted today but again I worked through it so far today and haven't smoked.
So this blog for now is gonna be my daily dealings with not smoking.